Dramatic outbursts

goodness, its been what, 2, 3 days? xP
I've missed blogging every three seconds, really... i have.
So... im writing a new story... Its Called "Nola and the Angels of Heaven" and it's about a girl named Nola Kennedy(Yes, NOLA not Lola)who was born September 11th 1988, and turned 12 on 9-11, when both her parents were killed in the Twin Towers.
She was an only child and had no other family, so she lived her life in and out of foster care. when she reached Legal age, she moved out and got a schollarship at NYU for writing.
She'd lived her life dependant on God, because he was all she had. she had absolutley no friends, knew no one at her college, she was utterly alone. so one day, when God tells her to do something she has no idea how to do, she sets out on a drive to try and figure out what he meant by "Help, see and act."
As she's driving around New York, her vision starts to get blurred and she sees an Eye doctor who tries a bunch of other prerscriptions that SHOULD match, but dont. then shen Nola gets so desperate, she tries at Random on the machine and it works. but when she puts her new glasses on, she starts seeing ghostly white figures that all look exactly the same. and when she realizes that they look like her mother before she died, she starts talking to them and they start telling her things. things that are going to happen, bad things. and then they tell her what she has to do to prevent these other terrorist attacks and natural disasters, and stuff.
So Nola has to fight for the world, single handedly. except, she has God on her side, so that's the only way she can do it. but when her faith starts to fail, she meets this guy who helps her through the remaining years of Tribulation that leads toward the Rapture and the End of her duty.

I dont know, the Idea just came to me. this is the kinda stuff i come up with when my stories ARENT based on a screen play of a new movie. xP
I guess im not totally helpless in my creativity, but heck. whatever.
i dont even know if anyone would consider reading it.
i did think it would make a great movie though. xD
just my opinion. xP

Um, so... My mom wont let me listen to Gwen Stefani anymore, which i thought was rather lame, because, i only like 2 of Gwen's songs, and there's really nothing wrong with them.
My mom says that just because Gwen has Explisit content on ONE of her CD's, i cant listen to any of her songs.
its lame, but whatever. "She's the Mom."
ugh. Its really too bad though, because they were my favorite songs. =(
i guess i just have to wait a couple years till i can make my own decisions.
but for now, i'll suck it up and go with it cuz she's my mom and God's put her in authority over me.
and yes, i know i cant spell a thing.
its not my fault. xP

I may be going to a Senior High Party with the youth group at my church here tonight, so that will be extremely awkward. xP
No one there ever really cares that i am in existance, they just sort of look at me and then look away.
I mean, Gabby only talked to me the other day because she helped Kaija clean my house.
she did smile though, so i guess that's a plus. the only seniors who've talked to me (Other than Kaija of course)for more than one or two sentances are... lets see, Aaron.The end. xP
I do like Aaron a lot.
He's very nice. I was just getting used to kaija being in love with him, and then i get back and she's dating Ian. i hear he's nice and that i'll love him and all this stuff, but Aaron was nice too.
I mean, i knew him. (i still know him) I've never met this Ian guy, and i dont know what to expect. Kaija has a picture of him on her wall, he's cute. but He's dating Kaija, she's in love with him, and i dont care if he's the sweetest guy on the planet,He's still the center of her thoughts.

i dont know, I'm just venting on my stupid blog.
no one reads this freaking thing anyways, so i figured it couldnt hurt.
Kaija's only read my Lola story.... i think... and when i heard she'd read it i died.
It wasnt really for her to read, it was just for me to write. ya know?
but she says she's not mad, and i believe her. so i guess its alright.

um, im at the library, and im dying because i REALLY wanna listen to Gwen Stefani right now, but my mom said i couldnt, so im not... and its KILLING my brain... someone get me coffee please... i have two different songs stuck in my head, and its glitching like a scratched CD... AAAHHH!!! Watch Out, you dont wanna know what happens when Lexy Gold's mind goes insane.
xP

Um... so... Kaija is going to sonshine with.... take a guess... IAN. haha, who would've thought, right?
oh, and guess what else, after i had to leave her house yesterday, guess who came over... Ian. yea... no really, im not kidding.
we didnt even get to paint our nails and watch the Matrix like i'd wanted to... =( darn. and now i have to wait for a whole fricking week for her to get back from Sonshine with... IAN... so that i can just fall apart when she talks about how fun it was and all the stuff Ian said/did.

why am I not going to sonshine, may you ask?
Im not going because i only have one friend in the entire world... Kaija. and guess who kaija's already going with INSTEAD of me? Ian.
congrats Ian, you win.

Im gonna go get Coffee now... and NO! even though i am depressed, I am NOT going to listen to Gwen.
though i really want to.
i have to prove that i dont do stuff behind my mom's back. even if she wont fricking let me listen after.
jeez, i dont wanna have to wait two years. =(
k, um... my CP is gonna shut off soon, so... yes.
bye.