did you miss me?

Grace says my blog misses me, so hi.

These are some pictures of me... and the cute red head is my awesome friend molly who likes to sit on my lap all the time. xP
she's amazing.
im gonna go get some mountain dew.
i missed you too, blog.










alright.. i know i may seem like a Narcissist, but im really not. i think im really ugly.
but im obsessed with pictures and photography, so please just leave me alone and let me take my pictures. xP

Wishes

There's this thread on SL about making a Wish List, here's what I'm Wishing right now:

1. I wish Grace was here at my house right now, watching movies with me.
2. I wish my phone didnt just die so i could've talked with her longer.
3. I wish she wasnt so sad right now. =(
4. I wish i could make her laugh like i just did all the time.
5. I wish she wasnt going to hurt herself.
6. I wish she knew how much i love her.

Grace, be Smart, and please dont do this.

NeverMind

I had an extremely long phone conversation with Josh yesterday, that WOULD have easily gone on for much longer, but Mitchell came over so i told him i had to go and he told me to call 11 his time today, so im patiently waiting for one o' clock to come around so that i can call him and we can continue our conversations about the University of Minnesota, Dorms, apartments, or even a house where we could stay together while we both take all the same classes in school and where we could have our own "Art Room" where we'd do our drawing, and writing and we'd have one wall all either white board or chalk board depending on who wins the argument... (We'll probably settle for mixing it up anyways, if i know Josh.xP) then one side like, a poster wall kind of a bulletin board type thing, like made out of cork or something so we can hang all our art up after we're done with it.
and he told me not to get my hopes up, cuz it was just an idea, and im not. just because i talk about it doesnt mean im obsessing over it. xP
it was just a really cool idea. He said i should go into modeling and then i could model for the characters in the comic books we'll be writing/illustrating... then i told him about how i could NEVER get into modeling and all that junk and he pretty much didnt care. xP
oh well.
anyways, The point of the TITLE of this entree is Never mind about Josh hating me... i was just freaking out for no reason. he was in Malaysia anyways! xP
*sigh* I have such a dorky crush on him. its hilarious.
anyways, im baby-sitting Ava, Dorothy, Charlie, Mary Madeline, Margaret, Liam AND sammie today. i better get paid for this... A LOT. cuz i have PMS and the LAST thing i wanna do today is sit and watch these kids, however sweet they may be. its still really hard with a lot of kids around and stuff, but hey... baby-sitting is how i earn my money, and if i dont have money, how am i gonna take Josh to that movie in 10 months? (If they do come up to the cities on the train when they get back from Malaysia... i really hope they do.) =)
and then he's gonna take me to StarBucks... and I'm taking him to a Movie and an Art Museum, cuz Art Museums rock!
He loved Penang, so that was good. at least he LIKES the place he's going to live in for the next 10 months. for me, it was like, torture because i HATED Hong Kong except for Tim, Joy and Lynn in my youthgroup. but that was it. seriously.
Im glad he enjoys the place he's being forced to live in. that's a good thing. xP
But honestly, i cannot wait for his return. he's the best friend i've ever had, and i thank God for him every day.

ignore this post

i cant figure out how to delete it... so im just saying ignore it. xP thanks. =)

Duluth, MN

Oh yes, the Rumors are true.
I did a concert this afternoon with... (Not Kidding...) Bill Isles Himself!
No really, im not kidding.
It should be on NBC... at least i saw the truck there. it was outside in a huge park in Duluth right across the way from that massive bridge that i like so much... you know, the big silvery one. xD =)
anyways, it was REALLY fun, i was SO nervous, but i got over it and sang his song "Big Girl Now" with him.
I have a video, (Which i will be uploading to youtube) of me and him singing, and then a bunch of pictures from erlier today/this week. =)
i dyed my hair blonde so i'd match my two amazing aunts Marth and Anna and my amazing birthmother Becca. now we're all blonde, except since i had SUCH red hair, mine looks kinda strawberry blonde, but i guess i'll just have kaija bleach it when i get back. im also thinking about getting it cut like i had it when i was 12, i dont know. just thinking about all my hair options.
im bugged cuz i havent listented to Gwen Stefani, OR had Starbucks in over a week. and both those lame facts are bothering/KILLING me.
yea, that's right.
I KNOW who killed me.
It was my mom, by not paying me for babysitting, and by not letting me listen to Gwen anymore. =(
Oh well.
whatever, i still have the gorgeous Duluth Lake walk to stare at all day, and then i've got that one picknick table at the lake walk that i carved my name and date into with a blue pen yesterday, so, that was exciting.
i also put a heart in it too... so... yea. if you're ever in duluth, you park at the beginning of the lake walk, its the very first picknick table on the left in the grass and my name is small, blue and says "Lexy Gold, July, 14th, 2007 <3"
xD yea... just incase anyone cares that i illegally scratched my name into a table.
but whatever.
i thought it was cool.
Anna and I spent the whole day yesterday finding cool rocks on the beach, and i got really badly sunburnt. =(
it hurts. but then Mike went to Walgreens and bought me some Aloe or however you spell it and that helped a bit.
then Martha's cool old friend Dough came over so him, Mart, Anna and Mike could all go to a bon-fire on the beach while i stayed home and watched Just My Luck/took a shower because my hair had been coloring for an hour and then i got all depressed cuz it wasnt blonde enough, but no one was home for me to compain to, so i just complained to Jake and Ashley as they switched luck and fell in mud and spilled salt and stuff. xP
anyways, that's why i havent been on for a while, I've been in Duluth.
and there was no Computer at Martha's house, so... yea.
that's why.
well, I love you all.
and i will post pictures as soon as my darling relatives email them to me.
KISSES!!!
Xx
Lexy Gold

I Know Who Killed Me- July, 27th, 2007

Alright... while i was going to Harry Potter a few days ago, i was looking for this month's upcoming thriller "I Know Who Killed Me" starring Lindsay Lohan.
actually, just the poster because i know it hasn't come out yet... but i was getting disappointed when i didnt find it outside of the building. so we went inside, got the tickets and then walked around to the place where the chick at the entrance rips them in half. xP
then i saw it.
a HUGE banner for I Know Who Killed Me hanging right above my head. and i thought "Wow, I Know Who Killed Me, it was the movie theater."
xD now, alright... be fair. i know the title gives the whole freaking thing away, (if you've even taken the time to not change the channel when the trailer comes on.)
but Go past the Title, some movies have stupid titles and are completely amazing... and some movies have great titles and they suck.
take Match Point with Scarlet Johansen(sp?) great title, horrible, depressing, confusing, and all together lame movie.
so this July 27th, i beg all you major thriller lovers, even if you hate Lohan, watch the movie and judge it for not the title, or actress, but for the character and plot.
alright?
the plot is actually quite interesting, or so i thought at least. i took what i saw on the trailer, interoperated it into what i think the movie is going to be about, and made my own mini plot line from that.
I cant do a review yet, because its not out yet. and even when it is, im pretty sure i cant go anyways... its like, rated R because LinLo does a freaking sex scene in the beginning AND plays a stripper before she gets kidnapped and tortured for 2 weeks then left to die (without a right leg...) in a ditch... in the rain and mud.
but the story itself i think would be fun for adults, and kids... who's parents dont mind them watching beautiful women strip for a camera. xD
anyways, my parents wont let me watch ANY rated R movies... so, its lame. but i'll see it later, i guess.
i mean, at least Plugged In Movies will have a full review on everything that's in it. *shrugs* i dont know, i was really looking forward to seeing how my story relates to the actual movie.
and i dont wanna have to wait 3 years to turn 17 just so that i can watch it. maybe my parents will decide i've matured enough by then and i'll get to watch it sooner.
cross your fingers for me.
Its not that i want to watch it just because my "x-obsession" LinLo is in it, its that i Found Out about the movie because she's in it, and then i got more and more interested in the story line itself, i mean... i dont go writing stories about Mean Girls and freaky friday! jeez people, my parents assume that every new movie i get excited about is because of the actress in it.
its not.
i mean, they think im obsessed in Gwen Stefani JUST because i like 3 of her songs!
childhood is a plague that i've been cursed with.
It lasts for years and years and then when i get out of it, a new curse is thrust apon me.
its called moving out, college and rent.
joy. oh how i cant wait for that.
pro's of adulthood, i get to watch all the movies i want to.
con's of adulthood, everything else.
i say, Bring It On.

Harry Potter 5

yea, i know... i dont even know the name of the new one. i just call it HP5.
and it works, cuz that's what EVERYONE else in the world is calling it. xD

anyways, i saw it yesterday.
It was pretty good, too.
I liked Loona Lovegood or however you spell/SAY her name. xP
she was cute, and really weird. so i liked her.
though the way my brother discribed her from the books, i was expecting her to be a lot weirder.
the weirdest part was that her shoes and stuff kept disappearing and when she found her shoes at the end of the movie... (Hanging from the door) she smiled and said "Im gonna go have some pudding." and then she skipped away.
like, Okay... it was odd. xP
but the movie itself was pretty good. though they totally just dropped Cho out of the picture! I liked her.
after her and harry kissed Ron was like "How was it?" and harry said "Wet." xD
it was funny.

so anyways, YES, i am blogging just for the sake of blogging, when i find a more interesting subject like when i write the beginning of Nola and The Angels of Heaven... then i'll write about that.
xP
I dont know, i suppose im just bored.

Drama at its Strong Point

So... Today i was a bit of a Drama Queen.
wanna know why?
My mom wanted to take me with all the way to Osseo (xP) just because she was afraid Mitch would come over and do something to/with me which is totally stupid, but whatever.
she was totally hell bent on making me go, but then i brought up that the car would be gone and he'd think that no one was home.. IF he even came over, which i knew he wouldnt cuz he's always at baseball practice and football training and stuff, so yea.
so after a LONG fight and me being the Drama Queen i am, she gave in and im here.
so now im gonna go do the laundry that i promised i'd do while she was gone as a bribe. xP

Dramatic outbursts

goodness, its been what, 2, 3 days? xP
I've missed blogging every three seconds, really... i have.
So... im writing a new story... Its Called "Nola and the Angels of Heaven" and it's about a girl named Nola Kennedy(Yes, NOLA not Lola)who was born September 11th 1988, and turned 12 on 9-11, when both her parents were killed in the Twin Towers.
She was an only child and had no other family, so she lived her life in and out of foster care. when she reached Legal age, she moved out and got a schollarship at NYU for writing.
She'd lived her life dependant on God, because he was all she had. she had absolutley no friends, knew no one at her college, she was utterly alone. so one day, when God tells her to do something she has no idea how to do, she sets out on a drive to try and figure out what he meant by "Help, see and act."
As she's driving around New York, her vision starts to get blurred and she sees an Eye doctor who tries a bunch of other prerscriptions that SHOULD match, but dont. then shen Nola gets so desperate, she tries at Random on the machine and it works. but when she puts her new glasses on, she starts seeing ghostly white figures that all look exactly the same. and when she realizes that they look like her mother before she died, she starts talking to them and they start telling her things. things that are going to happen, bad things. and then they tell her what she has to do to prevent these other terrorist attacks and natural disasters, and stuff.
So Nola has to fight for the world, single handedly. except, she has God on her side, so that's the only way she can do it. but when her faith starts to fail, she meets this guy who helps her through the remaining years of Tribulation that leads toward the Rapture and the End of her duty.

I dont know, the Idea just came to me. this is the kinda stuff i come up with when my stories ARENT based on a screen play of a new movie. xP
I guess im not totally helpless in my creativity, but heck. whatever.
i dont even know if anyone would consider reading it.
i did think it would make a great movie though. xD
just my opinion. xP

Um, so... My mom wont let me listen to Gwen Stefani anymore, which i thought was rather lame, because, i only like 2 of Gwen's songs, and there's really nothing wrong with them.
My mom says that just because Gwen has Explisit content on ONE of her CD's, i cant listen to any of her songs.
its lame, but whatever. "She's the Mom."
ugh. Its really too bad though, because they were my favorite songs. =(
i guess i just have to wait a couple years till i can make my own decisions.
but for now, i'll suck it up and go with it cuz she's my mom and God's put her in authority over me.
and yes, i know i cant spell a thing.
its not my fault. xP

I may be going to a Senior High Party with the youth group at my church here tonight, so that will be extremely awkward. xP
No one there ever really cares that i am in existance, they just sort of look at me and then look away.
I mean, Gabby only talked to me the other day because she helped Kaija clean my house.
she did smile though, so i guess that's a plus. the only seniors who've talked to me (Other than Kaija of course)for more than one or two sentances are... lets see, Aaron.The end. xP
I do like Aaron a lot.
He's very nice. I was just getting used to kaija being in love with him, and then i get back and she's dating Ian. i hear he's nice and that i'll love him and all this stuff, but Aaron was nice too.
I mean, i knew him. (i still know him) I've never met this Ian guy, and i dont know what to expect. Kaija has a picture of him on her wall, he's cute. but He's dating Kaija, she's in love with him, and i dont care if he's the sweetest guy on the planet,He's still the center of her thoughts.

i dont know, I'm just venting on my stupid blog.
no one reads this freaking thing anyways, so i figured it couldnt hurt.
Kaija's only read my Lola story.... i think... and when i heard she'd read it i died.
It wasnt really for her to read, it was just for me to write. ya know?
but she says she's not mad, and i believe her. so i guess its alright.

um, im at the library, and im dying because i REALLY wanna listen to Gwen Stefani right now, but my mom said i couldnt, so im not... and its KILLING my brain... someone get me coffee please... i have two different songs stuck in my head, and its glitching like a scratched CD... AAAHHH!!! Watch Out, you dont wanna know what happens when Lexy Gold's mind goes insane.
xP

Um... so... Kaija is going to sonshine with.... take a guess... IAN. haha, who would've thought, right?
oh, and guess what else, after i had to leave her house yesterday, guess who came over... Ian. yea... no really, im not kidding.
we didnt even get to paint our nails and watch the Matrix like i'd wanted to... =( darn. and now i have to wait for a whole fricking week for her to get back from Sonshine with... IAN... so that i can just fall apart when she talks about how fun it was and all the stuff Ian said/did.

why am I not going to sonshine, may you ask?
Im not going because i only have one friend in the entire world... Kaija. and guess who kaija's already going with INSTEAD of me? Ian.
congrats Ian, you win.

Im gonna go get Coffee now... and NO! even though i am depressed, I am NOT going to listen to Gwen.
though i really want to.
i have to prove that i dont do stuff behind my mom's back. even if she wont fricking let me listen after.
jeez, i dont wanna have to wait two years. =(
k, um... my CP is gonna shut off soon, so... yes.
bye.

Im back, and Safe, and Hot

Im Alive... i cant believe it... i lived. xD
Well, Im home... and my plane didnt crash, and it wasnt that bad.
except for one little freaking detail, my interent at my house isnt set up yet, so i had to bike in 90 degree weather... To the Library... in the sun, and heat and hell and it was gross, but i made it, and i had coffee, and im listening to Gwen Stefani, and its fun, and i like it. xP
except... i HATE Library CPs.. but its all good. =)

SO.. Kaija was at the air port and i almost cried, i missed her so much. i spent the afternoon with her, and it was great... but then she had to go to Ian's Cabin, they're dating by the way. =( oh whatever. xP
so... i have to wait for a while to see her, but when she gets back, she's giving me Gwen Stefani hair and we're gonna go to IKEA and totally re-do my bedroom, so it'll be fun. =)

My mom thinks i have a crush on Mitch, No No No... like i'd give up Josh for that. xP
not that Josh likes me... or i even have him, but... oh whatever. y'all know what i mean. Josh is the greatest guy i've ever met, and i havent even met him... whatever. more on the Joshua Subject later. right now im just trying to update all my crap so that everyone knows im alive.

love y'all, i'll post more later.
Xx
Lexy Gold

Lyrics, Part of a Story, and Im leaving...

K, im gonna post some lyrics on here just so that when i go home i can have them. Im not sure what my Computer situations will be, so im being careful. xP

Here's the Link (For Sweet Escape):
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3LKzazaxgr4

Here's the Link (For 4 in the morning):
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9IgLYmWmXCg

And here's the Lyrics:

(Sweet Escape- Gwen Stefani)

"If I could escape
I would, but first of all let me say
I must apologize for acting, stinking, treating you this way
Cause I've been acting like sour milk fell on the floor
It's your fault you didn't shut the refridgerator
Maybe that's the reason I've been acting so cold

If I could escape
And re-create a place as my own world
And I could be your favorite girl
Forever, perfectly together
Tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?

If I could be sweet
I know I've been a real bad girl
I didn't mean for you to get hurt
Forever, we can make it better
Tell me boy, Now wouldn't that be sweet?
Sweet escape

(I wanna get away, to our sweet escape)

You let me down
I'm at my lowest boiling point
Come help me out
I need to get me out of this joint
Come on, let's bounce
Counting on you to turn me around
Instead of clowning around let's look for some common ground

So baby, times getting a little crazy
I've been getting a little lazy
Waiting for you to come save me
I can see that you're angry
By the way the you treat me
Hopefully you don't leave me
Want to take you with me

If I could escape
And re-create a place as my own world
And I could be your favorite girl
Forever, perfectly together
Tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?

If I could be sweet
I know I've been a real bad girl
I didn't mean for you to get hurt
Forever, we can make it better
Tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?
Sweet escape

Whohoe, whihoo
Whohoe, whihoo
Whohoe, whihoo
Whohoe, whihoo

If I could escape

Cause I've been acting like sour milk fell on the floor
It's your fault you didn't shut the refridgerator
Maybe that's the reason I've been acting so cold

If I could escape
And re-create a place in my own world
And I could be your favorite girl
Forever, perfectly together
Tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?

If I could be sweet
I know I've been a real bad girl
I didn't mean for you to get hurt
Forever, we can make it better
Tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?
Sweet escape"


okay, so... just had to put that on here. xD I love this music video. =)
anyways, Here's the scoop:

Im going home to Minnesota at 5 AM tomorrow Morning, and i might not be on long enough to post anything. So... really REALLY sorry.
There might not be that many new entries for a while.
And, For the Record, I am NOT obsessed in Gwen Stefani. she's WAAAAY Too Slutty. I just like some of her songs, thats all. and her hair. I love her hair, and im gonna have Kaija help me get it... but Im not obsessed. she's a good singer, she had sometimes funny, sometimes beautiful/introverted Lyrics, and she's pretty.
So... just thought i'd say that. xP

So... the next time i get on,my hair might be bleached and french braided like JLo's.... or Gwen's in the middle of the Sweet Escape Music video. xD wow, thats going to be interesting. i promise i'll take pictures.
I love you all. =)
Thanks for reading.
there's also some stories i wanna post too, here's my newest:


It has no name, cuz its also a Role Play on my other forum "The Asylum" that Grace and I made for our friends, but Im calling my parts "Lindsay and the King" and its completely unrelated to ANY celebrities. i just Like the name Lindsay.
Chill Mom. K, The Parts with Lindsay, King Anderton, And Samuel are written by Me. Mara is written by My friend Meredith, and Yasmine was written by my other friend Grace:

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Yasmine glanced around her warily. She was on a small path that led between to great big cliffs. Once a thriving river now a dry bed were travelers came into the country. She was new, but already she could tell that this was a place were robbers and outlaws were likely to steal from a lone traveler. The sun burnt down against her as though a heavy weight and the ground beneath her was cracked. She was caked in dirt from traveling on foot for a long while.
~~~~~~~~~~~~

Mara saw Yasmine and tried to go un noticed. She ran quicker and faster so that the girl would't see. No tellin who would admit seeing the runaway.

~~~~~~~~~~~~

"Lindsay sat on her windowsill and sighed as she stared out into sunset. The mountains turned purple and orange as she thought.
It had been almost a month since The King had sent him off to battle and she couldnt stand it anymore. She needed him there, with her. She needed him to save her. Her father had arranged a marriage between her and her older cousin Marcus.
Marcus was a horrid man who lead one of the king's Armies. He enjoyed torturing the enemy from Ireland more than anything, and that made Lindsay Loathe him even more than she already did. He had wanted to marry Lindsay ever since he'd seen her for the first time when she was 14, and she'd hated him ever since that moment. he was tall, extremely strong, and blonde. There was nothing in his appearance that made her hate him, it was his attitude. he had a horrible temper, and he liked to drink... a lot. He killed one of his men once when he got drunk and blamed it on a soldier from one of the other Armies.
Lindsay used to be able to ignore it, she used to over look his murderous life style, until the king sent her lover into the armies of her cousin, under his order and the pain of his hand.
Ever since He'd told her that he had to go off and work for Marcus, she'd sit at the windowsill, and cry. She hoped and prayed with all her heart that he'd survive it. that Marcus wouldn’t Kill him and that they could find a way to get her out of that horrible Marriage deal. She tried to ignore the facts and the law, but now, looking out at that sunset, she couldn’t anymore.
She couldn’t hold it all back... she couldn’t ignore the fact that he Might get killed... by the same man that she was supposed to marry in a few weeks! She couldn’t stand it. she needed to do something, so she made quick decisions before her conscience and brain could catch up with her. She tore off her dress and all the girlie stuff she had been wearing and put on some of his old clothes, the one's he'd accidently left in her room that night when he'd had to run for his life. She put on his pants and his shirt and tied her hair up so it wouldnt fall in her face. Then she took her money, which was quite a lot actually and a scetching of them she'd done and climbed out of her ground floor bedroom window.
She ran to the stables and climbed on her black war horse. then She raced the wind down the winding roads that led to the palace. The King's Palace. Any ordinary girl would have been killed for rushing in on the king like this, but The King and Lindsay had a secret. Lindsay was his daughter, Biological daughter that is. She was born out of wedlock, Before the King's Father died, making him king. Lindsay's Birthmother was still out there somewhere, she'd never met her. Her mother had given her up to a family who wanted a baby girl when she wasnt even 2 years old, but Lindsay still had small memories of her. like that she was beautiful, and young, and she could tell that she at one point DID love Lindsay, even though she gave her up. One of Lindsay's goals was to find her mother and get her to tell her why she gave her up... i mean, she knew that it was illegal, but she wanted to know if there was any other reason she didnt want her. She hadnt seen her father in a long time, because he'd been dealing with the war against Ireland and managing the Armies, but Lindsay couldnt wait any longer. She had to tell him everything.
Everything about Sam and Her, about how she was being literally forced to Marry a man that she hates, and how that same man was going to Kill the one she was in love with if The King didnt do anything about it. She knew that he was the only one she could tell because he would never do anything to her. she was his daughter, even if no one else knew it.
He had given her permission to run to the Palace when she needed to talk to him, or when she needed help. She had to yell "Sanctuary" at the guards, even though it wasnt a church. That was just the word the King told them to listen for when a girl came riding up to the gates. So that's what she did. she rode her horse right up to the huge golden gates and screamed "Sanctuary" at the guards.
The gates slowly opened and she rode inside as they closed them behind her. once inside one of the guards helped her off and took her horse to the kings stables while another guard escorted her inside the palace.
She walked right up to the King's thrown while he was talking with one of his captains for his armies and she did a short bow and waited. She didnt have to wait very long, however because as soon as the King saw her he dismissed the Captain and ran to hug her.
"Lindsay Kennedy, to what do i owe this pleasure?" he said, kissing her hand. "Your Highness, I need to speak to you alone." she said, and he could see that she'd been crying for hours before she arived so he walked her into a side room.
"Lindsay, what is it?" he said, sitting her down on one of the floor cushions. "Father, I need you to do something for me." she said, untying her hair. "Of corse, anything for you my child." he said, in his king-like voice. "What is it?"
Lindsay crossed her legs and started braiding her long red hair. she bit her lip and took a deep sigh. "I... I need you to Take Samuel Casedy out of Marcus' Army..." she paused for a moment, trying to think of how she was going to say the next part. "And... Daddy, i need you to call off my marriage with Marcus." she stopped and looked into his eyes as she waited for his response. The King just sat there, staring at her. She could tell he was extremely confused. "But, Why Lindsay?" He asked after a few moments. "Why dont you want to marry Marcus? He's wealthy and a good fighter and he'd be able to take care of you forever." He stopped for a second, as if realizing something. "Wait... why do you want me to... Oh no." he looked at her as if she'd done something wrong and she knew what he was thinking and she bit her lip and looked away. "Lindsay, you're having an afair with Samuel Casedy, arent you?" He said, sitting back in his chair. "Do you know what could happen to you if anyone finds out?"
Lindsay nodded and hung her head. "But you're the King, father. You could keep me safe from those who wouldnt understand, couldnt you? you could stop them from hurting me if it ever gets out."
The King sighed and held his head in his hands. "Its not that Simple, Lindsay." he said, looking back up at her. "If i break the Law for you, everything about us will get out as well, and my people will call me a hypocrite because i broke my own Laws."
Lindsay looked up at him, confused. "You are the King of England! The youngest King they've ever had, but still! You could change that Law if you wanted to!" She wasnt Yelling, or even raising the tone in her voice, she was just extremely sad and worried and it made her a bit jumpy. "Father, please. you must know how i feel! You and Rebecca Isles had an affair, and it turned into me... do you regret me?" she said, as the tears faught their way back up into her green eyes and she tried to hold them back, causing her nose and cheeks to turn red. The King wrapped his arms around her and hugged her close to his chest. "No, i could never regret you, child. You're the one person i love more than anyone else in the world." he said, petting her hair. "I'll see what i can do. For now, i will pull Samuel out, but you two will have to make sure no one sees you together, alright?" he held her out at arms length, she was crying again. "Thank you Father." she said, her voice breaking into bits of sobs. He grinned and hugged her close again. "I'll see what i can do about the wedding, but you have to be patient. when is it supposed to take place?" when he let go of her, Lindsay pushed her hair out of her eyes and sniffed, trying to hold the tears back again. "Its in 3 weeks... Oh daddy, i cant marry him, i just cant. He's disgusting, and rude, and evil and kills for fun, and He treats Sam like some sort of Animal! Father, he treats his Dogs Better than his Men!" She covered her face and fell to the ground, contorting in hysterics.
The King stooped down and stroked her long hair softly. "Alright, Alright. I'll see what i can do. I promise you, Lindsay, I will find a way." when she looked up at him with her sad little smile, he kissed her forehead and hugged her. "It'll be alright. I promise. Now go home before they figure out you've left again, and i will send a message to Marcus telling him to send Samuel to me. Then I will send him to you, but privately. okay? Just be patient." Lindsay stood up and smiled. "Thank you Father. I'll do my best." she said, as she turned for the door.
She was escorted out of the palace and to the stables where she mounded her horse again and rode back to her huge house where she snuck back into her bedroom and threw herself on her bed with excitment. Sam was coming home, it had all worked, and her father, the King of Englad was actually going to help Her out of an aranged marriage her adopted father was forcing her into.
The only thing that could be better was if her Birthmother showed up and took her off to some cottage where they could actually be together until the King resigned from the thrown to live with them but she was 18. she knew that would never happen. and she wasnt hoping for it, she did when she was younger, but she had to think of her father now, he was the king. he was in charge of taking care of and ruling ALL of England. he didnt have time for her, and yet he was making time. He was going to help her get her happily ever after with the man of her dreams! He was the greatest King England had ever had. she thought. and she loved him.


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In a Tent on the camp grounds of the royal army, Marcus Kennedy was yelling at his soldiers, harshly.
Apparently, one of them had gotten him the wrong kind of milk for his breakfast and he was now threatening to kill them both because he didn’t know which one had done it.
When he was about to throw a very sharp object at one of the soldier's faces, a royal messenger came through the curtains.
"Message from the King of England." he said, holding out the scroll in front of him. "The King has Commanded that Marcus Kennedy suspend Samuel Casedy of his Duties perminently, and send Him directly to the king, washed, shaved and perfectly content. Samuel Casedy has been summoned to the Thrown of King Anderton the 3rd, For reasons you do not need to know. Send him immediately."
The Messenger closed the scroll and waited for the reply.
One of the Men that Marcus had been yelling at got off the ground, weakly. "The King has Summoned me? I am free to go to him?" he said, excitedly. Marcus just sat there in a daze, stunned. "Yes. I take it you are Samuel Kennedy, then?" said the messenger with a smile. Samuel nodded and rushed out of the tent as the messenger followed. "For what purpose?" he said, as they walked to the horses.
Marcus was still in a daze in the tent... but he'd always hated Samuel so he didnt care that he was leaving and soon went back to yelling at the remaining soldier.
The Messenger climbed on one of the horses. "It's not mine to say, sir. but I assure you, the King will tell you as soon as we arive."
and with that, they both rode off to the palace where Samuel was given a room, food, new clothes and a marble tub where he was able to bath himself for as long as he wanted.
When he had finished washing, he was brought to the King where he bowed Low. "Sire, to what do i owe this honor that you have summoned me in your presence?" he asked, getting back up. He was the only person who knew Lindsay's secret about the King, and The King knew that Sam knew, so that made it a lot less awkward when they had the few meetings that they had.
King Anderton smiled and motioned for Sam to come closer. "I have a new assignment for you, young Casedy. You will be the official Night Guard for a young Woman named Lindsay Kennedy." The King grinned and winked at him. And Sam could feel the excitement build up inside his soul, he almost couldnt contain it. But he was trained to Hide all his emotions and he did it well. he noded at the King. "Yes Sir. I will not Let you, Or Miss Kennedy down." King Anderton grinned and pointed to the door. "Your Maiden awaits you." Before Sam started toward the door, The King grabbed his shoulder. "Just dont let anyone see you." he whispered in his ear. Sam let a smile escape his training and then ran out the door.

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Laying, Face up on her queen sized bed in her huge bedroom, Lindsay Kennedy was hugging a pillow close to her heart. trying to wait patiently, but she kept sitting up every 5 minuets to look out her window, which she'd left open so he could climb in like he always did when he arived.
she waited for hours, and hours, she knew it would take a while, so she wasnt getting impatient. she was just getting more and more excited. She had done her hair in curls and her make up made from Flowers and berries and she'd put on a brand new Dress that the King had had made for her a month before. She waited and waited for him, but around 3 AM she fell asleep, unwillingly, with her Window still opened.
around 7 in the morning, The sun streemed through the window, and onto Lindsay's face and hair, making it shine. but it didnt wake her up. she loved the sun, and loved warmth, and it made her sleep longer. So she didnt wake up when Sam climbed through her window.
He walked up to her bed and stroked her long hair. He Kissed her forehead and waited for her to wake up.
When he kissed her, it moved something in her and she could tell something was different, but it took her brain 60 seconds to fully wake up, along with her eye lids, and she layed, moaning dreamily until she could get her eyes to blink open. "Sam?" she said, sleepily. then she realized what was going on and remembered what her father had done for her. Instantly, she jumped to life, and on top of him.

"Sam!" she yelled, kissing him. "I cant believe it, you're back! i mean, of course i can believe it... Daddy's never lied to me, but still!”
Sam smiled and flipped her over as he slowly un-lased her dress. When she was down to her corset and underwear, She stopped him. “Sam, We cant right now. They’ll hear us and The Monster will come down and beat me to hell.” The Monster was their ‘code name’ for her adopted father, who was very abusive.
Sam kissed her neck. “If he comes anywhere near you, I’ll kill him.”
He whispered, moving down her chest.
She ran her fingers through his hair and moaned/sighed.
“Sam, I want to so bad… but you know you cant kill him and you know what he’d do to me. We have to wait till its safe.” She said, pushing him out to arms length. Sam sighed and nodded.
“Oh Sam, there's so much i have to tell you... but I’m just too happy!" she said with a smile. She wrapped her long, freckled arms around him and didn’t let go.
He picked her up and sat on the bed with her in his arms.
"That's okay, Linds." he said with a laugh. "Take a deep breath and try."
Lindsay smiled and sat there, staring at him. "You look so different Sam, its only been a Month." she said as she ran her fingers through his hair.
"A Month in your cousin's army without you is like a month in the desert without water." he said, with a sigh. "Only the Army is sometimes worse."
Lindsay laid her head on his shoulder and sighed. "My Father is going to make sure everything works out, he promised, dont worry. He's gonna make sure that i marry you instead of Marcus, and we can move away and raise a family like we've always wanted and we'll never have to be like this again."
"Like what?" he asked, stroking her hair again. "Having to meet in secret, having to never let anyone know about us... having to always hide our feelings. We wont have to do this anymore." She smiled up at him and he kissed her again.
"The King is a good man. It's been my greatest Honor to serve under him. and it makes him even more admirable that he would do something like this for his illegal daughter. He Loves you Lindsay."
Lindsay smiled and laid her head back down on him. "I Know. and I love him too."
Sam wraped his arms around her and sighed deeply. "You do know that i cant stay..." he said after a long moment of holding her.
"What?! Why?" she said, all dramatically and confused.
"No one can see us, I've been assigned to watch over you from a distance durring the day and then personally at night.
Im your Night Guard." he said with a grin.
Lindsay suddenly got really sad again.
"But you JUST got here!" she said, with a moan. "Please dont leave me, Sam."
Sam shook his head. "I'll be around. I promise. I'll pop up randomly during the day, and I'll be watching your every move, so make sure you dont do anything stupid." he said, as he tickled her. she fell back onto the bed laughing. "Sam! Sam! Stop it!" she yelled/giggled. suddenly, they heard quickening footsteps coming down the stairs toward her Room. Sam got off of her and jumped out the window. "Wait, Sam!" yelled Lindsay, as she leaned out the window. Sam Pulled himself up and kissed her, for about 3 seconds. then he ducked down into the bushes beneath the window, leaving her in a dreamy daze, and dangling out of her window.
"I hate it when you do that that." she mumbled as she walked back over and fell on her bed with a big smile. Her door flung open and her adopted father ran in. "Who were you talking to? Who's In here?" he yelled.
"No One." said Lindsay, acting like he was crazy. "What are you talking about?"
He looked at her with a snarl on his face and slapped her. "Don’t you talk to me like that, girl or i'll have you stoned!" he yelled before he stomped out of the room. Lindsay was left, in sock and horror.
She got up and walked slowly over to the door to lock it, tears streaming down her face. Sam climbed back into the room and pulled her away from the door. "When your Real father makes us free, That evil man is going to get my sword in his back." he said, holding her head to his chest. "You'll never have to see him again, i promise you." Lindsay gave into the tears that were rushing up into her eyes and she let the sobs overwhelm her. She stayed in his arms for a few minuets, crying, and tear staining his shirt. Though he didn’t care.
"I'd say come with me and we'll run away, but we have to let your father handle it." he said, kissing her forehead.
Lindsay nodded and took a deep breath. "We'd get caught anyways. Its best if i just stay here. But don’t go far." she said, looking back up at him, the tears making her glossy eyes shimmer. Sam shook his head. "I wont." he said. He kissed her one last time and then climbed back out the window and rode off on his horse.

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While he was riding into the village to buy Lindsay something to get her feeling better, he saw two girls on the little road he was on ahead of him. "Excuse me..." he said, getting off his horse and tying it to a tree. "My name is Samuel Casedy I’m from the King's Army and I’m looking for a Jewelry store of some kind, would you ladies know where I could find one?"

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Mara stopped, she saw the one girl running towards her though she didn't know it, and this man. "I don't know where no jewelry store is." She snapped.
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Sam stopped and looked confused. "Oh, Alright..." He wasnt really sure what to say. The girl had just randomly snapped at him, and he wasnt used to women acting that way.
"Do you know the quickest way to the village? or do you know anyone who might know of a store? I need to buy something for my Mistress."

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Mara calmed a bit. She smiled, She hated mistresses and she didn't like the loks of this man either. "Yeah, it's that way." She pointed.
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Samuel was again, very confused and shocked.
This girl was being very blunt and she didnt even know him. "I'm Sorry Miss, have i offended you?"

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"No I've just had a trying day. If you know what I mean. Happy hourney my friend." She said and began to walk on. Hopeing that he'd believed her.
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Samuel knew women, he'd spent so much time around Lindsay, how could he not? and he knew that this one was very angry about something.
He grabbed her shoulder and walked in front of her. "Miss, I can tell something is very wrong. has someone done anything to you?"

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Yasmine stopped as she suddenly realized the two people a little way in front of her. She couldn't help but over hear their conversation and she made her way forward standing a little away from the man and the woman unsure of what to do, she watched.
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Samuel saw the girl watching, but waited for Mara's reply before he went to talk to Yasmine.


so... that's all we have so far, i spent only like, an Hour on my opening. (The REALLY Long part with Lindsay, The King, and Samuel. xD but it was fun. i was bored, and it kept me occupied. =)

anyways, I'm going home, and i Miss kaija So bad, there are not existing words that i could use to discribe how much i miss kaija. I finnaly got to talk to her today, and we made a deal. we're bleaching, cutting and braiding my hair so i can look like Gwen Stefani, then we're gonna make a music video of some random song.
If she doesnt wind up going to Ian's cabin, though she probably will.
And she should... they're very cute together, and He makes her happy. She should go, my hair can wait. xP
anyways, So... I might get on durring the night sometime and post on everything, but i might be jetlagged for a while, so i dont know.
I love all of you very much. and Im COMING HOME!!!! xD Im so excited!
See some of you soon, and see some of you in another life. xP

KISSES!
Xx Lex

Interpretations WIth Lexy! -4 In The Morning- Gwen Stefani

This song is by Gwen Stefani- the Super Mom-
She taught me how to spell Bananas- therefor i love her.
xD just kidding.

K, so... this song, i think is around the same level as A Beautiful Life- if not more so... here's the lyrics:

Waking up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had its say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think
When I let it sink in
It's all over me
I'm lying here in the dark
I'm watching you sleep, it hurts a lot

& all I know is
You've got to give me everything
Nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

[CHORUS]
I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don't want to lose the love I've found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don't let me down
It's not fair how you are
I can't be complete, can you give me more?

& all I know is
You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

[CHORUS]
I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

[BRIDGE]
Oh please, you know what I need
Save all your love up for me
We can't escape the love
Give me everything that you have

& all I know is
You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

[CHORUS]
I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right


alright... its time for another Song Interpretation with Lexy!
Cuz i know how you all love these so much! xD
we'll take it verse by verse like last time, cuz im feeling kinda bored. i didnt have coffee today, so im a bit slow too. xP
here we go:

First Verse:

"Waking up to find another day"- She wakes up, and she's still alive. and thinks "Oh great, gotta pull myself through all of this again." Basically, you dont care that its here again, You'll just go with it, cuz what are you supposed to do? life goes on, you're just a part of it.

"The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had its say"- She stayed up till 4 in the morning, depressed. and watched the moon go up and down. then she watched the sun come up and that's what told her Life's brought the new day that she's supposed to face.
The sun told her that the new day had arrived and she had to suck it up and go with it, cause she couldnt do anything and she is capable.

"I guess I feel alright"- She's accepting it and going with it. Even though she knows she doesnt feel okay, she feels like crap.

second verse:

"But it hurts when I think
When I let it sink in" - Admiting that it is in fact not okay. she's not alright, she's dying. She had just tried to ignore it, but gave up because she realized that there was no point and she came to the realization of what is happening around her and when she thinks about everything and lets if overwhelm her, she realizes its not okay at all.

"It's all over me
I'm lying here in the dark
I'm watching you sleep, it hurts a lot"- She Knows that it hurts. She wants to hold on, she wants to believe that it can be fixed and changed for the better, even though she knows deep down that its never gonna happen. She's lying in the dark, watching him sleep, and realizing that its never gonna happen... and it hurts a lot.

chorus:

"& all I know is
You've got to give me everything"- She knows that the only possible way it could happen and actually be fixed a little is if he gives her everything because...

"Nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me" Because she's given him everything. She's poored out her heart to him. She's given him her all, and she didnt get enough in return, thats why everything was so messed up. she's still offering everything she has to him, if he'll just give her something back.

"I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' over everything that I've got"- Like i said up there, ^.^ She gives him everything, and doesnt get enough in return, and its breaking her mentally, spiritually, and emotionally.

"Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up"- She doesnt wanna let go of him, even though its obvious that he's not right for her. Its obvious that it wont work out, and its dragging her down deeper into something that's not healthy, she knows it, but she doesnt wanna let go. she still wants him. She wants love.

"Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight"- She spends so much time trying to fix it on her own, when she knows completely that its not worth it. She just doesnt wanna lose what she's worked so hard for. She wants to make it worth the fight.

"What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right"- She's close to the edge of giving up. She's giving him one last chance, If they're gonna do it at all, go and do it right.
but then she retreats again...

Third Verse:

"All I wanted was to know I'm safe"- That part needs no interpertation. she wants to be safe in her surroundings, Love life, spirituality, and everything. who doesnt? people naturally wanna be safe, and they get upset and hurt when they dont feel the way they planned.

"Don't want to lose the love I've found"- Exactly what i've been saying the whole time, she wants to hold on so bad, she keeps fighting for it, cuz she doesnt wanna lose what she's been working so hard for.

"Remember when you said that you would change?
Don't let me down." - She's begging now. She wants so bad for it to work. She's literally trying everything she can think of, even to the extend of begging.


"It's not fair how you are
I can't be complete, can you give me more?" -She's still begging, and admiting that she needs him. And then she goes to the asking him for more straight out. like i said, she's trying everything.

Bridge:

"Oh please, you know what I need
Save all your love up for me"- She's telling him what she needs, and that she needs it actually. She needs more love, because she hasnt been getting enough.

"We can't escape the love
Give me everything that you have" Now she's kind of damanding, she needs it or its over. she cant live like this anymore, it hurts her too bad.

and then its the chrous again and it fades out... its an extremely beautiful Music Video actually. it made me cry, and i dont cry. its very beautiful.
She has an extremely unique singing style for this song, and i enjoyed it a lot. =) thank you Miss Stefani for singing fun songs that are interesting instead of boring old buble gum songs.
BANANAS! xD
k, sorry. just had to put that in.

im going to bed now, thanks for reading my boring interpretations. xP

Confidential: The Taske Force Files

Josh and I have this story that we've been writing for almost a full year now, ever since i first joined Son Light and he made this picture for it... and its like the coolest picture ever.

anyways, the story is about the President's daughter Lexy Gold and her Bodyguard Joshua Taske, and no joke, Hollywood stole it from us and created the movie "First Daghter" with Katie Holmes.
No joke, it was hilarious when i watched it... the story line was a bit different than ours.. (ours is better) but still.
xP
so yea, go get the movie, cuz its really cute. the beginning is kinda childish, but the rest is cool. =)

Prayer Requests

I have a friend who needs some prayer right now.
she's having suicidal thoughts and getting closer to the edge.
Please pray that she'll be feeling better.
=(

Xx

Goodbye, you horrid little skank

Beautiful Lindsay Lohan turned 21 today. she's probably out killing herself right now, not intentionally of course, but still. she'll probably drink till she falls over (again) and all that crap she usually does.
To be completely honest, im sick of her attitude. why cant she see that she could be so much more than she's chosing to be?
I mean... she calls herself "One Fascinating Bitch" what the heck?
Why cant she just see that she's gonna kill herself?! she will too, if she keeps this up. she says "If I wanna do something then Im going to do it and no body can stand in my way."
When she was around 18, i remember finding out about her and thinking she was so pretty and nice and beautiful and i wanted to be exactly like her in every single way possible.
I wanted to meet her and hang out with her and BE her basically, she was my Hero. my life. and now, looking back on those 3 years, (almost 4) how could i have let myself get that deep into her? looking back, i see 3 wasted, empty years of ignoring God's calling and shooting for the woman who i knew would later fall, and i knew she'd fall hard too. i just chose to over look the fact that someone with that life style would eventually die or hurt themselves, and i chose to play with the young idea that was Lindsay Lohan.
she was perfect, she was gorgeous and i loved her, i really did. i had shrines on my wall, in my bedroom... i had exactly 53 pictures of her on my walls, i had 2 full diaries where i wrote EVERYTHING about her i knew... and more... my thoughts about her, i put her porn in there, it was disgusting.
so Guess what Linds, I threw it ALL in the garbage.
maybe that'll be a good memory for you. after all, your first acting gig was on the Letterman show as garbage found on the D-Train. way to go.
You've messed up your life, so you know what? i dont care anymore.
You wanna die and burn in hell, go right ahead.
Maybe then you'll be happy, buring forever along side your idol, who made the same exact mistakes as you. though she had better morals, mind you.
she said that hollywood pays you 1000 dollars for a kiss and 50 cents for your soul... she was better than you, and she would be ashamed.
So now as you're out at your favorite club partying on your 21st birthday, trying to "make friends with all those cool famous people" i'll sit on the other side of the world and laugh.
You're gonna die in your 30's, and it will be sad, but the world will get over it. because so far all you've done for it is become another slut, another porn star, when you could have been something different. you could have been something amazing, something that the world would remember and love... you could have changed it, Lindsay.
You could have Changed the world with your brilliant Mind, but instead, you chose the shallow life that everyone else chose.
you should hang out with Mandy Moore.... she's not as famous as you, but she's a whole lot better.
I feel sorry for you.
Happy Birthday.

Its a Day in the Life

Yesterday, was AMAZING!
Okay, i know i had been complaining about the whole being forced to go with people places, but I got to FINALLY go to Madam Tussauds' Wax Museum (In Hong Kong, not NYC or London so i didnt get my favorite celebs.)
But... I got to take a picture with the Meryl Streep One!!! XD it was SO AWESOME! It looked Exactly Like her! i thought it was gonna jump to life and grab me, it was SO cool! i couldnt even stand it! xD

I also got a picture with Mel Gibson (<3) and Madona, and President Bush!!! xD Liam got a picture shooting Clinton. HAHA!
Lets see, what else... My Idol's Idol, Marilyn Monroe the wonderful... i got 2 pics with her, then Elvis, the beatles, Rembrandt!!! I got a picture with Rembrandt! No Joke, it was hilarious! And Pacasso(sp?) and Gahndi, and it was so funny!
It was like... Meryl Streep you guys! sorry, im freaking out... she's my second favorite besides Lindsay... it was so fun! And i wanna go to the one in New york so i can take a picture with lindsay and kiss her and stuff, it'll be hilarious. xD
*sigh* how i love celebs.
Too bad they werent real so i couldnt talk to them or anything... actually, i kissed Marilyn Monroe, so maybe its a good thing they werent real. xD just kidding.
its so sad that she's dead. =(
anyways, The pictures were regretibly taken with a friend's Cell phone, so as soon as Quan San emails the pictures to me, i will put them on here, i swear. xD

other than that, we told riddles for hours at Dinner, and it was hilarious... i was contorting in hysterics the entire time... and i had about... oh, 5 or 6 coke bottles so i was a little giddy, i dont get hyper from caffein, i usually get mello, but the riddles and us trying to figure them out was so hilarious, Oh it was so much fun!

Oh, so... i wrote that in the morning before any of this happened Louis (Quan San) took us to Fantastic 4 for the second time, at the IFC building, right? yea... and we got there on the train and everything perfectly, but we had to go up and cross the street, and we screamed at the top of our lungs "DONT WORRY HONG KONG, WE WILL MISS YOU!" just like Hiro from Heroes screamed to all of new york "Dont worry New york, we will save you!" it was SO fun... and i think i will actually miss this place to the extent of Tears... its going to be bitter sweet.
I'll miss Joy a lot, and Lynn, but then i miss my family and kaija and molly all so much, its hard to chose which one is my home and which is a vacation. but then when i think beyond my feelings or possibly DEEPER into them, i realize Minnesota beats everything. even when i move to New York for college and become a famous celebrity and all that crap, Minnesota will always hold my love and broken pieces of me. like Becca. who better be at the air port in 2 days when i come home or i'll be very angry. xP
Aw, i love you Becca. I'm coming home soon. =)
I can stand 2 more days, cant I?
I believe i can. pray for me y'all, i may wind up having a heart attack of excitment... actually, it might not stop, it might start beating to fast and explode... that would be something to see... too bad it'll be me exploding. xD LOL
JK... anyways,
I'll post pics later. =)
love you all.
Xx

Miu Miu

Alright... tell me this,
Whats the point?

Miu Miu is amazing, it looks completely gorgeous, But NO ONE (not even in Hong Kong) would walk around wearing 100% Miu Miu, though i have said i want to... i wouldnt, (k, maybe i would xP) but i mean... it stands you out a bit too much... look at it!
its like, this shimmery glam brand, yet it has such a dark tone to it... i dont know what to think.
I guess im trying to find meaning in everything these days, i dont know why.
but there has to be a reason for everything, right? even what people do... there's always a reason they did it.
So why did Lindsay Lohan go out and model for Miu Miu? Why did she become their head model when she's only 5'5 and not blonde and not deathly skinny? (though she used to be... and with HIGH heels on she's almost tall enough. xD just kidding.)
I mean, how can someone so talented go out and model for clothes?
Maybe she has more time on her hands since she dumped "A Woman Of No Importance." who knows? She does. and so does her family, but unfortunately, i lost their phone numbers. xD Haha, yea. i know, right? "Nice Try Lex."
Anyways, my point is that even though the clothes are amazing, what is she geting out of it? do more people buy the clothes and give her money because she modeled for it?
actually, that's probably it. she still has millions of fans even though she's doing all this trashy stuff, they're probably all out Buying Miu Miu.... JUST because she wore it on a billboard.
infact, that's what im gonna do... bye. xD
just kidding. I dont have the money to buy Miu Miu and see what its like.
what is it like, anyways?! Is it even comfortable? it doesnt look like it.
All i want are the Miu Miu glasses and the clothes just so that i can say "I have Miu Miu clothes" to my non-existant friends. yea... k, i have 2 friends, whatever. but they wouldnt care at all if i had Miu Miu or not, so there's only one other reason.
Lindsay Wore it... NOT she doesnt even wear it walking around, she wears Marc Jacobs, Calvin Klein, Caviar and Kind,
and all that other stuff she loves so much... i mean, you know a person loves Gucci when she names her DOG after it. xD no joke, does anyone have Aliana (her little sister) Lohan's christmas album? yea... at the end of one of the songs the entire Lohan family gets out and says random stuff like "Gucci, Polo, Chloe, Gucci's MY dog!" and Dina (their Mother) actually said "Santa Rocks! did you get your X-Box?" and then Codey (Dakota- their little brother) says "No."
Why on earth would he say No? they're the Lohan Family, Lindsay would buy him anything he wants! she took Ali to stay with her in LA for a week one time and had them CLOSE Disney Land for them... CLOSE it... no joke.
jeez, i wish i had a big sibling who was rich... im the oldest of six and its Rather annoying. xD
LOL
anyways, i dont know where i was going with that, but still.
If anyone gets Miu Miu before i do, Tell me what its like.
thank y'all for your time. xD

Liam's Strange Matter Role Play

Liam, My brother who looks like young Elijah Wood from Huck Fin is on the same homeschool forum as I am... and he started a Role Play about the Scientists who are at this moment Creating a Strange Matter science thing... and it COULD eat the whole world.
but anyways, I play two Characters, Lindsay and Will...
here's the last thing I posted:

(but first, you should know what has been happening earlier in the story... The strange Matter went off and they all got blasted and nocked out. and then they discovered that they could do random Junk, Lindsay's like a human Mood Ring, only when she's REALLY Angry she sets on fire and when she's sad she turns Blue and icey... And her normal power when her mood is normal is that her skin turns like, invisible, but you can still see a Glossy Outline of her shape, and if you touch her, the place your skin touched leaves a finger print or whatever of flesh colored... skin, like, its really weird, she's like one of those pads little kids use in the waiting room at the doctor where its black and then you touch it and the place you touched turns to rainbow... thats her power, she can do that. and when she's fire, she can Fly around like Johnny from Fantastic 4. xD I sitll havent quite figured out what Will's powers are yet, but He was holding Lindsay when he got hit with the blast, so... its gotta be something similar.)


Lindsay grabbed Will's arm and tried to pull him to her car which was parked across the street, but he stopped her. "Wait, Lilly's saying something..." Lindsay stopped and looked at him, confused as ever. "What do you mean? how can you hear her?" she asked, walking him back towards the bush that she'd first pulled him away from.
"I dont know!" he replied, annoyed. "Maybe its another part of the freakish thing your brother did, but she's saying she wants to turn into Liam and use his powers or something... what the heck?" he scratched his head, thinking about why Lilly would ever wanna do that.
Lindsay groaned. "Ugh, why cant she just leave well enough alone? I never wanna see, hear or talk about that girl again, do you understand?" She made sure by her tone that Will knew she was partly Joking. she didnt boss him around for real, only teasing... and it had made her extremely angry when Lilly had described him as "Willy, Lindsay's Puppet" Linds would have killed her if she'd had the chance, but there were WAY too many witnesses, and she kinda blacked out right before she went super nova. When she got that angry, she blacked out and didnt know what she was saying, she only felt that Angry feeling you get when someone says or does something completely obnoxious to you, and you wanna get them back for it so bad, you just know you cant and it eats you alive. she hated that feeling, and tried to make it go away, without being aware of her surroundings and actions.
The normal Lindsay always held back her anger and disguised it with Jokes and teasing... and when she had PMS, she made sure she stayed away from people she didnt wanna hurt because she knew she wouldnt be able to control it.
She had never wanted to hurt Lilly, she had a choice to either befriend her or make an enemy, she chose to befriend her. Yes, Will had asked her, but it was the kind of thing where it was more of a suggestion disguised as an order. Will and Lindsay were very good at reading through eachother, because they had been dating for almost 3 years, and were now engaged. They knew when they were kidding and when they were serious, and when they needed space. when Will had told Lindsay to make it right, he was suggesting she consider what she'd said and think about if she'd done anything to hurt Lilly or if Lilly was just over reacting. Lindsay knew it was partially her falt, but also partially Lilly's because who gets that upset about two lovers goofing around and giggling? Lindsay couldnt see why that had made her angry, but she didnt want to get Lilly mad at her. she hated it when people hated her, it was the kind of things her cat-fights were made of, but she'd never enjoyed them. they just happen.
She'd become proud of herself for how she handled Lilly that morning, and the Strange Matter Mistake had ruined all of that and she'd lost it completely. She was feeling very sad at this point... and her skin started turning blue and her breath turned to frost. Will, didnt have to read through her, because her emotions seemed to have started showing up on the outside instead of behind the pretty smile now, and he could tell exactly what she was thinking and how she was feeling. "Linds, Lilly might not forgive you, but you can still try." he said, putting his arm around her chilling skin. Lindsay laid her head on his shoulder and her tear froze halfway down her cheek. "I Cant Will. I must have made a horrible scene. I bet Liam even hates me now, and no question about Lilly. This is worse than PMSing cause i dont even know when its gonna end! i cant just lock myself in my apartment till it goes away, i might be like this forever! Besides, its better that i dont have any friends. I'll just scare them off with my..." She snapped her fingers and a flame shot out of her index. "Flames."
Will's hand had frozen to her hair and he was trying to get it off. "I Know how you must feel, you did make a scene, but if they arent willing to let it all go then you dont even want them in your life. you're 20, you're perfect, you're beautiful, and you have your entire life ahead of you... you dont need them." he said, pulling his hand off as she warmed up.
"Thank you." she said with a cute little Katie Holmes smile.

Title is attempting to be creative...

So... yesterday, it was Hong Kongs wanna be Independence day... from brittan. and i was like "Oh great, celebrate, you're free from the queen, but now you're inslaved my Communists! way to go! Blast the fire works!" But it actually was pretty cool, the fire works went on for a while, but they didnt have any really cool huge ones like in MN. =(

Before we went to this 5 star restaurant with "Quan San",(Uncle Louis) we walked around for about 3 hours in the markets trying to find random junk to buy... i needed my dad to buy me a wallet so i could have something to put my allowance in and so that he could give me my allowance. xD but no, we didnt find one. we werent at the Ladies Market and they have much better stuff there. =P
So... i made the hilarious mistake of wearing Knee-High socks with my new convers... UNDER jeans.... In Hong Kong... when its 100 degrees out! Yea, Im an idiot.
But they're like, MY ONLY pair of socks... like, that i own. and i got them last winter, so its not my fault.
I do find it hilarious though that my mom let me bring knee-high socks and expected me to wear them, and refused to let me bring my sweatshirt or high heel boots that i got for my birthday from the coolest grandma ever!
Mimi is awesome, she's only 38 years older than me, so i HATE calling her my "grandma" its such an old word... i just call her Mimi. =) She took me to Charllote Russe for my birthday and it ROCKED! xD

Anyways, yesterday... yesterday... Um, Louis Invited Me, Liam and Margaret to go see Fantastic 4- Rise of the Silver Surfer AGAIN (We had already seen it) cuz he wanted to see it with us.... and then after we go at 11AM today, BTW, we're going out for Lunch with him and our Family's meeting us at the place.
Im excited though, i LOVE Jessica Alba, and she's awesome as Sue Storm in this movie, and I get to watch it in the IFC Building! No Joke! Its HUGE! xD i love it.

So... yea... I've been Missing Becca A LOT more than usual, i dont know why my feelings for her just turn on and off like that.
I mean, i've been so emotionally attached to her for so long, but then when i moved i didnt get to see her anymore, so now im going back home and everything is gonna be all different and teary and i might accidently say something i shouldnt have... (Becca is my Birthmother By the way... just thought i'd clear that up xP)
Its funny, Kids who arent Adopted always wish they had been, and kids who are adopted always wish they werent.
What is it with Kids and their Parents?! xP

Um... I'll post more later, if i have time. im gonna be on and off randomly for the next few days cuz... i'll be getting ready for my move.. which is in only 3 days!!! Im SO excited, and i cant wait to see Kaija again, i miss her a lot.
But now she's dating this Ian guy and all, so... i dont know how thats gonna work. I'll have to see if i can find a new friend...
OH! wait, i have Grace. I have to go visit her, SOON! cuz... she hasnt PMed me in 3 days and im getting very worried.
Maybe i should call her... ugh. i cant. i have to tell her first, but she hasnt been on...
i dont know what to do.
anyways, I gotta go get ready for Fantastic 4 now, Wish me luck! I might make a shirt that says "I <3 Sue Storm!" xP no... that would be gay. whatever... bye. xP