Im a dorky loser

its true.
but i have a cool shirt.



and yea, i do hate soccer. =/
but i LOVE tigers... so it all works out.

A Beautiful Life

this is how i've been feeling lately.
I know i had this song on here before, but i just need it up at the top again.

God wont talk to me, I guess *he's pretty busy lately
I'd like to believe *he's Listening.
Im starting to feel
all of my bruises imagined are real
and i'll get through each day
I dig through the bad ones
to get to the good ones
who's keeping score anyway?

And this is my beautiful Life
the only thing certain is everything changes.
Lows and the highs, and all those goodbyes!
as hard as it gets, i know it's still amazing
to be alive
Its a beautiful Life.

I talk in my sleep
that's the one place i know no one can hear me
I tell myself things
Dont walk in the shaddows
there's always tomorrow,
and im right where I wanna be!

And this is my beautiful Life
the only thing certain is everything changes.
Lows and the highs, and all those goodbyes!
as hard as it gets, i know it's still amazing
to be alive
Its a beautiful Life.

Oh! It hurts while its happening!
I wanna feel everything!
how can you know till you try?

and this is my... beautiful Life...
Oh... hhh

My Beautiful Life! The only thing certain is EVERYTHING changes!
Lows and the HIGHS! And ALL those goodbyes!
As hard as it gets i know its still amazing
To be alive!

Its a beautiful life
its a beautiful life
Its a beautiful... life...
or lie

Diane in the Salon getting her nails done

Diane went to a Salon to get her nails done for our wedding a few Hours before our conversation in that previous post.
here's what happened there.

Diane walked into the Hotel Salon, and up to the desk. a blonde woman walked up and smiled friendly at her.
"You must be our bride to be." she said, grinning.
Diane said nothing but returned the grin.
"Okay, lets see 'em." said the woman.
Diane's smile vanished instantly and she said half joking, and half in shock "Excuse me?"
The woman laughed and held out her hands "Your hands, silly."
Diane's smile returned and she laughed at herself quietly, trying not to let on that she was embarrassed.

the woman walked Diane over to a table and started setting up the Manicure station... while getting straight to the point of the conversation she hadnt even started yet.
"So what is it?"
Diane was again confused. "What's what?" she asked with her grin still intact.
"What's the reason you're marrying him? Love? Money? what?"
Diane looked down with a sad smile. "The government is sending a check for one hundred and thirty five dollars a month, so not money." she started. then she looked up.
the woman took her hands and dipped them in the water and continued the conversation. "Is it Love then?"
Diane shrugged. she didnt know. she barely knew the boy, come to think of it. she knew his name... that was pretty much it.
"No..." she drifted off in thought.
The woman sighed. "Yea, I married for Love. He could've had any girl he wanted, he looked like a movie star, and he picked me." she continued to wash Diane's hands.
Diane smiled. "And you picked him, too, right?"
The woman looked up. "Yea, i guess i did." she paused. "So why are you marrying this guy, anyways?"
Diane sighed. "Well, He's a soldier. and if i marry him, he goes to Germany. If i dont marry him, he'll probably go straight up to the front lines and get killed. i mean...More and more boys are coming back every day in Body-bags. Two even from my Graduating class just this last month! and if i could've married them to keep them alive, then i would've. I mean..." she paused for a second to think about what she was about to say. "Its just... Until someone in charge tells me WHY we're over there anyways, I dont really see a point. If marrying him tonight keeps him from going to Vietnam then its worth it."
She stopped and looked down. her long eye lashes made her look like a china-doll.
"You're going to be the most beautiful June Bride here. I promise." said the woman with a smile.

yea... that's all i got so far.
just making up scenes as i feel like it.

Chalk Outline and a Murder String

here you go, Grace.
I love you, darling... i dont just go and write poems when other random people tell me to...
just for you, my dear. <333

Chalk Outline and a Murder String

My Life is being waisted. Broken and Abused.
My Mind's running and chasing My thoughts all around the room
My Soul is hovering around, Looking for some peace
To lay its ghostly head upon and finally get some sleep.
My Body's left down on the floor, Lifeless as can be.
A Knife stabbed deep into my chest, I've always been too weak.
Too weak to stop and take the time to look around and see
That everything was going wrong, And he never cared about me.
So now because i was so blind, Im lying on the floor.
With nothing but a chalk outline and a Murder string, no more.
They try to see the past with this silly string of theirs,
Starting where they think i died and leading to the stairs.
But they wont find him, They never could, and they never even will.
That’s why My soul’s been cold as stone and always feeling ill.
So now my body’s on the floor, soon to be in a bag.
My Running mind is trying to find the last few words i said.
And right before it wakes my soul, it remembers the words i dread.
The words i used to say to god before i went to bed.
The words that people say but never stop and think about
but now i know the words we say are straight from the pit of hell
if you could see them with immortal eyes, the eyes owned by the dead
you’d see the blood dripping from the innocent that was shed.
It drips the words all down the wall, painted with their blood
and as my soul slips away the words were once more sung.
in my ears and in my head, i hear them one last time
I Love you, dear. that’s all they said, but now i see the crime
I Know who killed me, it wasn’t him, it was love that stopped my time
you say that love is a blessed thing, but i can see the truth.
Its something them and all their strings cant find, its buried in the roots.
The roots of the master mind, the murderer that ran.
But don’t blame him, but blame the things that caused the sin, his hands.
He was blind as much as I to the power of inducing love.
But now I’m gone, forever lost, in the stars that burn above.
Goodbye, to earth, goodbye to Love. Goodbye to all my friends
The world will soon enough fail you all as much as i am dead
I loved you all, but now i see that love can only hurt
And now the fire that love has set is going to forever burn
It burns away the evidence, So you’ll forget the living dead.
And since im gone, i’ll try to forget, as my soul lays down its head
It founds its peace in heaven above, and now it can finally rest.

About to Marry Diane to Prevent from going to Vietnam

Here's the Basic Story behind this, Im a soldier in 1968, and if Im Married, i go to Germany. if Im NOT Married, I go straight up to the front lines and probably come home in a body bag. my friend Diane from collage has said she's going to marry me... and we're but an hour away from our wedding... im getting cold feet... here's what's going on:

Diane opens the door for me.
Me-"That dress looks amazing on you."
Diane- *Smiles* "its bad luck, you know."
Me- "What is?"
Diane- "To see the bride in her wedding dress before the wedding."
Me- *covers eyes with hand* "That better?"
Diane- *laughs* "Silly." *walks over to bed and sighs*
Me- "What's wrong?"
Diane- *sighs again* "Nothing...Its just, i when i was a little girl, my wedding was always going to be the most important day of my life... you know, its every little girl's dream, White Dress, Flower girls, a Cake taller than you! its just... im going to be missing all of that."
Me- *takes Diane's hand* "We can still have all of that, this is just a certificate. you know that, right? we can still have your big wedding."
Diane- *nods*
Me- *goes back to fixing outfit/hair in mirror.* "Im Not so sure about this after all..." *After pause* "Diane, i cant help feeling like... well, Like im taking something away from you."*turns around from mirror* "Something Sacred. You're only supposed to do this once, like our parents. its not frivolous, Not disposable."
Diane- "Look, I am okay with this, In my heart... and in my head...okay? its my choice."
*sighs and takes my hands* "If marrying you tonight... keeps you from going to Vietnam then its worth it."

Me- *sighs* well, look on the bright side... be getting 135 bucks from the government every month... at least until the annulment.
Diane- *whispers/on the verge of tears* And what if i dont want an Annulment?"
Me- *looks up confused and partially shocked.* *whispers* "What?"
(This part i cant post cause it would get into too much detail... so im skipping to the wedding.)

Later we go to the ball room because a famous person is coming to give a speech and everyone in the hotel shows up.
we're waiting for the famous person to come out and dancing/chatting.
Me- *sighs* "I just realized, i just married you and I dont know hardly anything about you! I dont know your Birthday,
Diane-"August 3rd." *smiles*
Me-"I dont know your favorite food, color, your favorite Book or movie...
I dont even know if your Belly Button is an Innie or an Outie!"
Diane-"An Innie.... and i am surprised you didnt know that..." *pauses in remembrance of the hour before... then Giggles adorably*

k, that's all i wanna do.
its late, and im just attempting to entertain myself.
bye.

Teaser Poem

just cuz you've been bugging me, i wrote a really short 4 line poem to get you to quit it till i have the thought enough to write a good one. here ya go, dearest.
love you!

Its dark outside,
The moon has been ignoring its Job.
And im sitting here wondering,
Why the heck Grace is making me write a song.

there ya go.
now just attempt to be PATIENT as i try to think up a worth while poem! xP
I love you dear, please dont be angry that im such a dork. xP

xox!

Alexandra Taske's Thoughts part 2.

I've decided to give a title to the stories i write about Lexy while Josh is Gone... yea.
and i know my real name is Alexa, but Alexandra fits her better. =/

Lexy Walked slowly down the stairs in her living room that led to her huge kitchen.
She always walked slowly when depressed. And she was Depressed about Josh, so it made her move even slower.
And plus, she knew that in a few seconds her son Jackson would jump off the banister from the third level that she was coming from and try to land on her back, so she didnt want to be too far away. she had to catch him.
she let out a long, deep sigh. "Three...Two...One."
Jackson came running down the hallway upstairs yelling loudly, and threw himself off the railing and landed directly on his mother's back, causing her to almost fall over.
luckily, she caught herself and set him on the floor, without saying anything.
"Mom, why didnt you yell at me?" asked Jackson, getting to his feet. Lexy looked down at him with a dull expression, but again said nothing.
"You miss Dad, dont you?" he said, shaking his head.
she nodded, and sighed again.
Jackson smirked like his mom had no reason to miss their father already since he had just left that morning, and ran into the kitchen to help himself to the Peanut-butter and Oreos.

Lexy shook her head at him. "What am i going to do without him?!" she thought, hopelessly to herself about her husband.
Then she braced herself for her Daughters to come yelling at eachother down the hall, Maria (the younger twin) would jump onto the railing and slide down, trying to nock her mother to her feet, then Lola (the angelic, older one) would come running down the stairs and help her mother up and yell something at maria.
"Three...two...one." sure enough, her predictions became reality. Maria slid down, yelling "Look Out Byotch!" at her mother and shoved her against the wall, and Lola screamed "You cant talk to mom like that, you idiot!" She ran down the stairs and grabbed her mother's arm and stroked her hair.
Lexy was only 14 when she had the twins and Lola was best friends with her. "Mom, you cant just let her get away with that! she basically called you a coded form of Bitch! you have to ground her or whip her or stab her with your gold plated assassin knives or something!" Lola was about as tall as her mother and hugged her close. "Mom, im gonna call dad." she said, taking out her cell. Lexy stopped her. "No, Lola. He said only if there's an emergency. we could give away his position accidently."
Lola sighed and closed the phone. "Alright, but only if you promise to do something about the way Maria treats you."
Lexy smiled sadly and hugged her daughter. "Alright, i'll pray about it and do something when im ready." Lola sighed and shook her head, then walked her mother into the kitchen to get some icecream for Elijah.

To be continued...

Art, Be afraid.

^^In Which Nola Kennedy Reaches into a moving painting of the past and stops the plane from crashing into the twin towers^^



^^In Which i zoomed my camera in on a Body picture of Lindsay Lohan^^



^^In Which An Empty girl wishes she could have a Sweet Escape... too bad wishes dont come true^^


Oh for sure, My art is like, super insane.
um... yea.
see for yourselves.

Updates with Nola and I miss Josh...

k, So Far, Nola's Best friend Galdred (in the dumb Role Play thing...)
is fighting some chick... and this other... thing... im confused.
but whatever, here's just like... yea.
here's some of my posts:

(This is while Galdred and Icewind were in a fight with this other chick)

Nola, being the shy teenager that she was, Felt that it would be strange for her to intervene. But then again, Galdred was her bestfriend... but on the other hand, God gave out specific missions and challenges to specific people, and going against that and getting herself involved would probably just postpone her chances of going on her next mission... she was at a COMPLETE loss of what to do.
then her mother came over and whispered in her ear. Her angelic voice sent the same mesmerizing chill down her spine as it always did. "He says this is a Test, And dont be afraid. Take the chance and jump in."
The blood in Nola's face seemed to instantly drain out and she was STILL at a loss of what to do. why did God want her to do this anyways? why'd he even pick her? because she's boring?! nothing made any sense!!!
"Mother, what am i supposed to do?" she whispered back, trying to keep her tone calm.
"Use the Crystal i gave you on your 18th birthday."
Nola took it out of her bag and it lit up and started spinning. she held it up and it hovered in her hand.
It sent out a glaring light and then a Flash that nocked her, and every 'Mortal' that was in this new world over, all except her mother who seemed to not even acknowledge what was happening.
Nola stood up, and grabbed the crystal and slammed it on the ground. "Oh God, what did you get me into?" she thought as she tried to keep herself from looking up. they were surly going to come after her now.
there she laid, on the grass, like a child terrified of a bee.
waiting for their response.

(then this is someone else's post)

Icewind was hypnotized by the color. "Aargh!" He cried. Tailtorn awoke. She saw Nola, Lying on the ground as if Icewind was going to attack. "Hey," She said friendly, helping her up. "You're not going to get hurt anymore than you are now. That crystal is Icewind's weakness." Icewind was blind from the bright light, but for some odd reason he grabbed Tailtorn and tried to bite her. Tailtorn was stuggling to set herself free, but nothing helped. "Help!" She cried.

(K, here's my response)

Nola was Partially in shock. She grinned at her mother, who smiled back.
Then she picked up the Crystal and walked over to Icewind. "Give me one good reason why i should let you go. You're terrorizing my best friend... and if you know me, i barley have ANY friends at all, so i stick up for the few that stick around me. Why should i help you?" she paused for a second, and twirled the crystal around on the silver chain her mother had put it on. "Why shouldn't i just kill you right now?"
Oh no, her mood had changed.
whenever she had hold of a Holy possession, her Personality completely changed. she became outgoing, outspoken, and thought things she would've never dreamt, because her mortal mind wasnt ready for the Holy things she was given. This was how Nola sinned. Though unintentional, she still sinned greatly, as did all mortals. and it was during these times when her Mother couldn't look at her any longer... when she had to turn away.
Because Her mother was an angel, (though the others saw her as just another Fairy) and she was Immortal, So she couldnt look upon sin.
Nola, however, never seemed to notice when her mother looked away, because sometimes Nola saw what she wanted to see... again, this was unintentional. she was an Angel in training. a mortal warrior. she couldnt handle all of the immortal emotions and possessions that had been thrust upon her.
There she stood, towering over icewind, her Eyes got their usual Glazed over, white color they did when she became completely possessed by her own Soul that overtook her whenever she was in possession of something holy.
She gave an Evil Grin, yet said nothing, waiting for Icewind's response.

k, yea. the girl hasnt gotten online to reply yet.
remember, this part of the story is like what happens to a great movie that gets turned into a TV series.
Its not the actual story, i just needed to start writing and getting ideas.

alright...
as for the Me Missing Josh part,
I've decided to start posting my Thoughts as Lexy Taske, Josh's wife and her Children when Josh (Taske) goes on those LONG Missions for the Government.
here you go.

Sitting on her Window sill, with her head in her hands, Lexy Taske tries to hold back the sobs that are fighting so hard to overcome her.
She had just kissed her husband goodbye, He was leaving on yet another dangerous and LONG mission for the Government for a few weeks, maybe a month, and Lexy always had to prepare for the worse, while Hoping and Praying for the best.
And while attempting to battle all of the flowing emotions, she knew that she had to drag herself out of her dark bedroom and go on with her Life. She had 4 kids to feed, get to school, pick up from school, take care of and assure that she and their father were alright.
On Top of the mother Job, she also had her regular Job which she did from home as Josh's assistant, AND she didnt have a maid so she had to clean their 3 story Victorian Home that overlooked a 40 acer Vineyard in Napa, California.
But right now, All she could think about was Her Husband and the Dangers he was constantly putting himself in.
She couldnt stand it.
She loved him, and it killed her every time he left on one of these Missions.
Because she never knew if she was going to see him again.

So, Here in her room, Crying like a child, Lexy pulled herself up, blew her red nose, and walked out, shutting the door behind her.
Instantly her youngest son, Elijah ran up to her and basically jumped into her arms, clinging to her.
"Mama, Why are you crying?" he said, wiping the wet streaks on her face dry with his little 4 year old hand. His pacifier sticking out the side of his mouth.
Lexy smiled, sadly and hugged him close. "No reason, baby. sometimes Mommies just cry." she said with a short sigh.
Elijah looked up from her shoulder, confused. "That's silly." he said, shaking his head, his Curly blonde hair bouncing. "Mommies shouldn't cry all the time. They should be happy."
Lexy looked in his Big Blue eyes that were identical to hers, confused. "Well, why's that?"
Elijah gave a little grin, the SAME grin his Daddy always got when teasing Lexy, then he rolled his eyes and half-giggled "No Reason." then he squirmed out of her arms and ran down the stairs.
Lexy laughed a short laugh and then walked down the stairs after him.

(To Be Continued...)

Baby Pictures

Arent I adorable? er...
WASNT I adorable? xP


Omigosh, yea.


Me and Peabs!!! xP

Hell's Angels Updates

Chow, Nola Kennedy here.
I've spoken with my darling sister Kyra, and i now know which people group The LORD has assigned her. though she made me swear not to tell a soul, therefor, im sorry dear Blog and Readers, I cannot say.
But i do have a prayer Request for Kyra Black. She's not been feeling too good, and she needs God to open her mind and calm her down so that she will feel peace in the midst of her hectic life.

As for an update on my Dearest Schwebe, His Plane arrived in Malaysia about 2 1/2 days ago and he is getting settled into his new home with his Human family, and is going to start his ministry there in a few weeks.
Pray that Jesus will give him strength in everything he does over there, and that he wont get a girlfriend in his new highschool. xP

And for me,
I have received new information on my first assignment The "Lohans" from a few magazines at the store here in Minnesota.
And needless to say, This information has only increased the urge from God to help them with their lives, because it has come to my attention that they are incapable of helping themselves.
When i read what Lindsay's parents have done to her and let her do to herself, i was in shock.
and i've decided to do whatever it takes to get over there and speak with them.
i dont care how long it takes, but i know that its what im supposed to be doing.
So pray for me that God will open the doors necessary for this project to work.


All my Love, Always,
<3 Nola Kennedy

Nola and the Angels of heaven

alright y'all,
I decided to kind of use my basic story line in a role play on SL... but its a bit different than the actual story itself... like, im writing it in the eyes of both her mother who is the Angel(s) in the story AND her... they're both named Nola Kennedy, though her mother is immortal and she is a mortal... anyways, here's what i just posted on SL:


Nola awoke that morning, tired, drowsy, and a bit tattered.
she had promised her daughter who still lived on earth that she would leave Jerusalem that morning and fly down to earth and visit her.
Nola's daughter had the same name as her, but since Angels often talk in the third person, she called her daughter "Lola-Dee" because it was similar to her real name, and because it also described her perfectly. "Shy, introverted, Lucky and smart." so much meaning packed into a small name.
once in a while she would call her "Kara, Angel of the Seven" because God had chosen Nola jr. to rule in the years of Tribulation that were yet to come after the Great Rapture. now, you may ask, why would God leave Nola behind after the rapture if she was already a christian?
well, he's not going to. Nola gets raptured, but then sent back, with new eyes to see what they cant see, a new heart, and a new mind.
but none of this has happened yet, i only had a small vision in a dream. Nola's time has yet to come.
All of this is what her mother Nola Kennedy was thinking as she got out of her golden bed and brushed her wings with fairy dust, and combed her hair with a turtle dove comb embellished with 20K diamonds. and then she put on the fairy outfit her daughter had made her as soon as she left the gates of Heaven, because the outfit was more mortal than heavenly... God might have been angry if she'd put it on inside of Jerusalem.
once she had it on, she spread her huge angelic wings out wide and flew down to earth in all her shining glory.

~~~~~~~~

In Central Park, Lola-Dee put on the Glasses that Jesus had given her on her 18th birthday. they were special, hand made by the angels.
they showed her what the world really looked like, everything that is, and everything that Truly is.
Mortals cant see what she sees with these glasses because of the sin in their hearts. Sin is powerful, too powerful. it blocks the amazing things that are really happening around them from their eyes. and no mortal had ever been chosen by God and His Son to see the earth's miracles before.
it was as if when she put on the glasses, everything on earth seemed to jump Millions of years ahead in technology. it was amazing! Lola-Dee had NEVER seen anything like it in her entire life, and the only time she would ever see anything better was after the years of Tribulation when she finally got to live with Jesus forever.
after she's done her part.
but for now, she was more than content with her birthday gift.
she put on the glasses, so she would be able to see her mother fly down.
Her mother was too angelic, even disguised as a Pixie for any mortals to gaze upon, so Lola had to use the glasses.
She put them on, looked up at the bright blue, yet cloudy sky and saw what looked like a falling star coming straight toward her.
she could not explain how Angels knew where you were anywhere you were, no matter what, all the time, 24-7... she couldn't even understand it, but it happened. because she'd been overcome with Angels on her birthday and a few other times before while she'd been wearing the Glasses.
They were sort of a Portal to what the world will be like after God redeems it. after its wiped from all sin.
But it was only a tiny glimpse of that because Lola was still mortal, and wouldn't be able to handle seeing the new city's full beauty.
However, since her mother wasn't mortal, she was an angel, her mother sometimes saw more than Lola, so she'd have to describe it as best she could. Nola Kennedy could see the new world's full beauty. and it was mesmerizing. she was the only Angel allowed to go down there, because her daughter was now God's Messenger and warrior. it was a big deal.
and she was grateful that God let her visit Nola jr.

Slowly, her mother approached her. She flew down and sat next to her on the bench.
She looked around and sighed. even an Angel gets overwhelmed by the beauty God creates. Unfortunatley for the reader,
I cannot describe what this new world looks like.
because i have yet to see it myself.
the most i've seen is in a vision, a sort of day dream that came over me one day. it wasnt much, it was sort of just a story coming to my mind, but at the same time, i did get a glimpse of some things Nola jr can see through her glasses. but since i am still a mortal, i can only see what you can. and I cant even begin to describe what Nola Kennedy is seeing right now. so yes, i am sorry, dear reader. but you'll have to wait until either the rapture, or the day when you become dust.
to continue with my story,
Nola saw that her mother was in awe, as she was every day. Nola, being a human, got used to new things easily. Angels never stopped being amazed, partially because they never stopped learning new things about God. God seemed to add a brand new thing to the glorious new world that even she couldnt see with her glasses every day, because her mother always reacted the same... yet she always acted differently.
like when your favorite TV show comes on, but its a brand new episode you've never seen before. the same original excitement, but just different.
though, i must add, the excitement and awe of this place was far more than worldly excitement, it wasnt really similar in any way, because it was Holy, it was Pure, something that our mortal minds cannot comprehend. but i shall continue attempting to make you understand in the best way i can.
Nola jr. looked over at her mother, and sighed. she wished she could see what her mother saw. Humans are never content with what they have, they always want more.
Nola could tell what her daughter was thinking because all Angels can.
"Be patient, my daughter. your time will come. God is at this very hour preparing your next mission." she said in a soft, beautiful, angelic voice that would have sent any ordinary mortal into a Daze.
Lola-Dee hung her head and sighed. "I Know, mother. I didn't mean to be envious, its just that every day that you bless me with your presence, you sit there and stare in amazement at something i cannot see."
Nola put her arm around her daughter and Lola felt a chill go through her body, and she suddenly felt extremely calm. "Daughter, i tell you the truth. The Lord will show you when your time comes. and that time is soon, i promise you. i have been to heaven, and i have walked with the King himself. His plan is flawless and perfect, but you my dear, must learn patience." Lola grinned and hugged her mother close. her mother was technically the same age as she was, well, around the same age, and she felt more like her best friend than her mother. yet at the same time, she did seem like her mother. when in reality, she was her guardian angel.
A stranger jogged by on the road and saw Nola (jr.) talking to and hugging the air and he decided to jog a bit faster... and farther away.

Come On Guys...

You're just Jealous because Im a vampire and you're not.
*sighs* No, Im not rubbing it in, Kyra.
Chill.
Here, alright... If I bite you will you stop yelling?!
Alright.. fine. *bites Kyra*
There, happy?
you're a vamp now. *sighs* now im not the only one.
oh well, we can be Vamps together.
lets go bite Pucah and Schwebe!

Yea, i only posted because i found these cool pictures... its true. xD

Innocence- Avril has some deep thoughts, no joke.

(And NO. the picture is not Avril... it just seemed to fit the song.)

Alright... she had dibs on the writing of this song, i swear. its amazing... its her greatest and most Introverted, "deep" song that i've heard her sing...
here's the lyrics:

waking up i see that everything is ok
the first time in my life and now it's so great
slowing down i look around and i am so amazed
i think about the little things that make life great

i wouldn't change a thing about it
this is the best feeling

(chorus)
this innocence is brilliant
i hope that it will stay
this moment is perfect
please don't go away
i need you now
and i'll hold on to it
don't you let it pass you by

i found a place so safe, not a single tear
the first time in my life and now it's so clear
feel calm, i belong, i'm so happy here
it's so strong and now i let myself be sincere

i wouldn't change a thing about it
this is the best feeling

(chorus)

it's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
it's the happiness inside that you're feeling
it's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
it's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
it's the happiness inside that you're feeling
it's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

it's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
this innocence is brilliant
makes you wanna cry
this innocence is brilliant
please don't go away
cus i need you now
and i'll hold on to it
don't you let it pass you by


Now, Im going to let you all figure this one out on your own, because its rather simple. the song is clear and makes it so that you understand pretty much everything in it without having to run to Lexy Gold to tell you what it means... Im not David, y'all.
anywho...
yea... This song made me cry, Avril is... amazing.
no other word.

Pucah and Nola.... opinions? help me out.

Schwebe Kyra and Nola
Hell's Angels
Alright... Nola's best friend Kyra has a big brother, Named Pucah. and Kyra has been trying to hook them up and she's been kind of acting insane... but anyways,
Pucah is really nice and funny, but Nola thought she was completely in love with Schwebe, like, all her focus was on him, he was her angel. He did everything for her, he was perfect... and she believed 100% that God had a future for them... and then this thing with Pucah and Kyra happens...
now, you've gotta understand, Nola was beyond head over heels for Schwebe. she was beyond the puppy love, big round gaga eyes for him, she was really REALLY in love with him... and even more, he was everything she'd prayed for...
He was as good at art as she was, he could Write, He could sing even better than she could, he plays guitar, he loved mythical creatures, and most importantly, he loved God above everything and everyone else.
Now, Pucah comes along and he doesnt sing, draw, write, or even listen to secular music... but there was something about him...
He does put God above EVERYTHING in his life, but Nola's worried that its just going to wind up her wanting to fall for him because she's wanting to be closer to Kyra.
Nola has NO clue whatsoever what to do about this... can someone please help her out?
she cant sleep, and its driving her crazy.

A song for Grace.

Alright dear... this song just jumped out at me on youtube... its what i've been trying to say to you all this time.
i love you sweety.

Keep Holding On
By, Avril Lavigne

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side
You know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
no I won't give in

Keep holdin' on
'Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just, stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say (nothin' you can say)
Nothing you can do (nothin' you can do)
there's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late
This could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side
I will fight and defend (ah ah)
I'll fight and defend (ah ah) yeah yeah

Keep holdin' on
'Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just, stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

Hear me when I say
When I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change
Nothing's gonna destiny
Whatever's meant to be
Will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah....

La da da da, la da da da da
La da da da da da da da da

Keep holdin' on
'Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through



Ahh, ahh
Ahh, ahh
Keep holdin' on
Ahh, ahh
Ahh, ahh
Keep holdin' on
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could say
nothin you could do
nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

When You're Gone

Im too depressed about Josh's move to write anything introverted or try to interoperate this song. i think it can speak for itself.
rock on Avril... im gonna go cry about Josh now.

here's the lyrics:

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
they lie on my floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And when you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah Yeah

All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe, I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

Schwebe, Kyra, and Nola rule the earth.

Hello, Im Nola Kennedy.
and My two best friends are Kyra Black and Schwebe. that's right, its just Schwebe. he doesnt have a last name. (Dont ask him why, he's kind of embarrassed about it)
Don't tell Schwebe this, but i have a huge crush on him.
no really, and what you probably dont know is something i probably shouldnt tell you... but since no one reads this thing. i guess its okay.

Kyra, Schwebe and I are all angels.
that's right... but not just ANY angels,
We were sent to earth to see in people what normal humans cant see...
see,
You humans look at people's outward appearances, but Kyra Schwebe and I look at the inside, their souls... (YES, we do in-fact have that power.)
Which is why we dress so insanely... Schwebe dresses like a COMPLETE nerd, Kyra dresses Gothic, and I dress sort of in-between Emo and like an Art Freak from the movie "Mean Girls."
anyways,
We were sent to earth by God to help rule in the years of tribulation and we've all been assigned different groups of people to try and convert to Christianity before the Rapture.
I've been assigned all the well known people... you know... what's the word you guys use here... um,
...
Celebrities... that's it.
I've been assigned to help the celebrities and famous ones.
Kyra's been assigned a more secret one because God told her not to tell ANYONE not even us... (though i think i may be able to get it out of her...)
Kyra's the most important Angel out of all of us because she's the smartest, the prettiest, and the most thoughtful, introverted one. she's beautiful in every way, and i cant wait to find out what Mission God put her on.
i got the dumb Narcissists of the world. Yuck.
Um...
Schwebe got assigned the outcasts, Introverts, and basically everyone that Kayla and I dont cover already. xP

Now, us angels were stripped of our wings when we dropped from Heaven, so that we could fit in with you humans down here... but when we go back up with God after the years of Tribulation,
we get them back... and we'll be standing behind Jesus, shouting GLORY TO GOD IN THE HIGHEST, JESUS HAS RETURNED! because that's what all of us Messengers do, we tell earth what's goin' on up in heaven cuz y'all are too stupid to figure it out yourselves! silly people. *laughs*

So my message to all of you celebs and beautiful narcissists out there,
Watch your back, cuz God's gonna zap ya to Hell if you dont listen to me.
this is your last Chance.

Kyra and Schwebe have their own Blogs as well, but only the people they're supposed to work on can find them, so i cant tell you what they are.

OH! i almost forgot, before God sent us down here,
Norma Jean... or... what was her earth name again?
Oh yea, Marilyn Monroe... she gave me a message to help protect kayla, schwebe and I... im still not sure what it means...
she says "Imperfection is Beauty."
try and figure it out.

Signed ~Nola Kennedy~